ureshi (:

aerosmith, guitar heroes, bumming, long car drive/ride and a very adorable ('god') nephew made for a wonderful night. i couldn't ask for more really.

when i come home.. it feels like i never left. i'm surrounded by ppl i do really want to see. never having to see ppl i don't like (mainly cos i don't go out). its a wonderful feeling really. and when i sit by my daybed watching the sun rise and set everyday. everything feels the same. it feels like home. its a indescribable feeling, this tightening of the chest. this feeling of belonging. and thoughts of how i don't even want to apply for an internship in london start popping into my head. how i don't want to spend anymore unnecessary years away from here..

and as soon as those thoughts appear, the opposite ones do too. i built something by myself, the exact way i wanted in london. i can say proudly that i put up my room, my dorm, cooked my food, did my own laundry. the independence i have over there is exhilirating and refreshing. there are so many ppl over there who i love too. and i can't imagine not seeing them for years.

gah. what a bloody confused state i'm in. and the worst thing is i got to sort this shit out in less than a year's time. brilliant -.-